Decoding Boy’s Cryptic Messages

I don’t understand boys. If they like you then why don’t they just come out and say it? I miss subtle hints… they go right over my head. I need a man who is direct and can right out and say, “Hey I really like you, and do you want to go out on a date with me?” I shouldn’t complain. When I get bored with a guy I just ignore him… secretly wishing and praying that he wont call. And if doesn’t get the message I change my cell number. But if any man told me to be direct with him I would. Hell it takes a lot for me to get attached to a guy. Could it be that I don’t give off the right signs that I like a guy? I can be cold. I don’t do PDA. Hell a dude would have to be my boyfriend before I’ll hold his hand in public. I’m not a prude, get me in the right situation and I’ll totally make out with just about anyone. The only explanation I can think of is that although my family is very loving and generous… they lack affection. It’s like that scene in the movie Beautiful (2000) directed by Sally Field staring Minnie Driver and Hallie Eisenberg, anyway the little girl was talking about the Orphan babies in Romania and how that no one ever picks them up or holds them so when they grow up they don’t know how to love. That could be me. I just don’t know how to love. I’m a great girlfriend… I’m always doing those small things and giving special gifts, but that’s how I was raised. My parents would buy me things instead of hugging me. I’m not a hug person. I will hug people if they ask. Oh and the most important thing… a boy must ask to kiss me, at least on the first kiss.