OMG Was That a Date?

Okay boys please let me know if you are asking me out on a date or if we are just going to hang out… Because the other day I was totally under the impression that we were just hanging out, and I was so waiting for the check so I could pay my share (I told you I haven’t been there before). Plus on a “date” I dress so much nicer… anyway it wasn’t until I reached exit 9 that I thought “was that a date?” I love going to Nubble at night, to bad I fell asleep (again)… On the birthday front I have decided that it is time… Adults are supposed to get laid on their birthday… right? Well I have never has sex on my birthday. NEVER!!! But what birthday is better to get some on than the big 25? So right now I am making a promise to have sex on my birthday. 13 shopping days left people; let’s get a little creative this year. As of right now I don’t have any set birthday plans, but I was entertaining the idea of bar hopping Saturday night and getting completely smashed, and then on Sunday heading up to Keene to get inked yet again. I know what I want to get I’m just having trouble picking where to get it. It must be in a place where only very selected and special people will be able to see it.

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Some friends at Kelly's Row...

The flowers I got for Valentine's Day




And the Wize Crackaz

The Green Eyed Monster...

I’m not jealous… “I just watched MTV’s True Life: I’m Jealous” and I am so not like those people, but I deal is I don’t know where I stand with him. Okay so at the end of the night all his friends left, and he went off to talk to some chick… whatever that’s cool… but I was left standing there thinking, “should I stay, or should I go?” (which played on WERZ on the way home)… I would have waited around while he did whatever with whom ever… if I was his girlfriend, but I’m not. So there I was trying to figure out if I was there as his friend and I should leave like his other friends, or if I should wait for him. God made my choice for me. Y’all know how I just like to sneak out of places because I hate goodbyes? So I found the perfect opportunity there was a large crowd heading for the door, so I just went along with them. I’m just about to make a clean break when he stops me and asks if I’m leaving. And he did the sweetest thing… He got all concerned about me being cold walking to my car. Anyway when he asked if I was leaving I wanted him to say “don’t, wait” but he didn’t. His eyes looked like they wanted to say wait, but then again they could have just been irritated by the smoke in the room… Even as I was driving home I secretly wished he would call and ask me to come back, but he didn’t… He said he would call… I’m going to dinner with Tim and Mike (I think). I hope he calls, but I’m not going to wait by the phone…

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Valentines Day

So because there is only one deck set up in our (Jaima & me) office. So today Jaima gets to use it to time code her script and log her lower thirds… anyway that means that I have nothing to do until I hear back from NARA, hence all the Valentine comments. But Jaima, Donna, and I were talking about Valentine’s Day. Donna who is dating a much younger man, had some problem with her boyfriend not thinking about their future together, and Jaima was upset that her boyfriend didn’t do anything but call her this morning (he lives like 3 hours away from Portland). Whatever… at least they have boyfriends. And what made things worse is that Tim (Jaima’s boyfriend) send her flowers… to the office. I have never had someone (other than my daddy) do something so romantic on Valentine’s Day. Mike never did anything for me on Valentine’s Day. Oh, oh, oh and someone else in the office is proposing tonight. I’m not a big mushy lovey dovey type of girl, but come on. Just like Donna was saying… I’m not getting younger and if I want to get married and have some kids before my eggs dry up, I need to get on the ball. I used to have this plan.
Age 25- Be in a serious, committed monogamous relationship
Age 26- Get married
Age 28- Have my first child
Age 30- Have my second child
Age 33- If I have 2 boys or girls then try for a third child of the opposite sex

And now look at me… I’m what 3 weeks away from turning 25 and what have I accomplished? Well I do have a kick ass career. I am doing what I always dreamt of doing. I always knew I would work in film, and I did it. I have that… Poor Meghan always wanted to be a writer or lawyer, and now she works in a medical office… newly married, but too poor to have kids.

You know what I really want for Valentine’s Day? I want a boyfriend who will buy me those Necco Wafer conversation hearts…. That’s what I want!!!

171... I Have No Life!!!!

SUPPOSEDLY if you've seen over 90 movies, you have no life. Mark the ones you've seen. There are 190 movies on this list. Put your score in header and repost:


(x) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(X) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
( ) Boondock Saints
(x) The Mexican
(x) Fight Club
(x ) Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story
(x) Blazing Saddles
(x) Airplane
Total: 9

(x) The Princess Bride
(x) Young Frankenstein
(x) AnchorMan: The Legend of Ron Burgandy
(x) Napoleon Dynamite
(x) Labyrinth
(x) Saw
(x) Saw II
( ) White Noise
(x) White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
(x) 50 First Dates
(x) Jason X
Total: 11

(x) Scream
(x) Scream 2
(x) Scream 3
( ) Scary Movie
(x) Scary Movie 2
(x) Scary Movie 3
(X) American Pie
(X) American Pie 2
(X) American Wedding
Total: 8

(x) Harry Potter
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4
(x) Resident Evil I
(x) Resident Evil 2
(X) The Wedding Singer
(x) Little Black Book
(x) The Village
(x) Donnie Darko
(x) Lilo & Stitch.
(x) Lilo & Stitch 2: Stitch has a Glitch
Total:12

(X) Finding Nemo
(x) Finding Neverland
(X) Signs
(x) The Grinch (jim carrey)
(x) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(x) White Chicks
(x) Butterfly Effect
(x) Thirteen Going on 30
(x) I, Robot
Total: 9

(x ) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
(x ) Universal Soldier
( ) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(x) Along Came Polly
(x ) Deep Impact
(x) KingPin
(x) Never Been Kissed
(X) Meet The Parents
(x) Meet the Fockers
(x) Eight Crazy Nights
(x) Joe Dirt
Total:10

(x) A Cinderella Story
(x) the Terminal
(x) the Lizzie McGuire Movie
(x) Passport to Paris
(X) Dumb & Dumber
(x) Dumb & Dumberer
(x) Final Destination
(x) Final Destination 2
(x) Halloween
(x) The Ring
( ) The Ring 2
Total: 10

(x) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
(x) Practical Magic
(x) chicago
(x) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
(x) Hellboy
(x) Secret Window
(x) I Am Sam
(x) The Whole Nine Yards
Total:8

(x) The Day After Tomorrow
(x) Child's Play
(x) Seed Of Chucky
(x) Bride of Chucky
(X) Ten Things I Hate About You
(x) Gothika
(x) Nightmare on Elm Street
(x) Sixteen Candles
(x) Remember the Titans
() Coach Carter
(x) Bad Boys
Total: 10

(x) Bad Boys 2
(x) Joy Ride
(x) Se7en
(x) Ocean's Eleven
(x)Ocean's Twelve
(x) Identity
() Lone Star
(x) Bedazzled
(x) Predator I
(x) Predator II
TOTAL: 9

(X) Independence Day
(x) Cujo
(x) A Bronx Tale
(x) Darkness Falls
(x) Christine
(X) ET
(x ) Children of the Corn
(x) My Boss' daughter
(x) Maid in Manhattan
(x ) Frailty
Total:10

( ) Best Bet
(x) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(X) She's All That
(x) Calendar Girls
(x) Sideways
(x) Mars Attacks
() Event Horizon
(x) Ever After
(X) Forrest Gump
(x) Big Trouble in Little China
Total: 8

(x) X-Men
(x) X2
(x) Spider-Man
(X) Spider-Man 2
( ) Sky High
( ) Jeepers Creepers
(x) Jeepers Creepers 2
(x) Catch Me If You Can
(x) The Others
(x) Freaky Friday
(x) Reign of Fire
(X) Cruel Intentions
(x) Cruel Intentions 2
(x) The Hot Chick
Total: 12

(x) Swimfan
(x) Miracle
(X)Old School
(x)The Notebook
(x) K-Pax
( ) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
( ) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
( ) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(x) A Walk to Remember
(x) Boogeyman
Total:7

(x) Hitch
(x) The Fifth Element
(x) Star Wars Episode I The Phantom Menace
(x) Star Wars Episode II Attack of The Clones
(x) Star Wars Episode III Revenge of The Sith
(x) Star Wars Episode IV A New Hope
(x) Star Wars Episode V The Empire Strikes Back
(x) Star Wars Episode VI Return of The Jedi
(x ) Troop Beverly Hills
(x) Swimmig with Sharks
Total: 10

(x) Air Force One
(x) For Richer or Poorer
(x) Trainspotting
(x) People Under the Stairs......
(x) Blue Velvet
(x) Sound of Music
(x) Parent Trap
(X) Parent Trap Re-make
(x) The Birds
(x ) The Terminator
(x) Terminator-2
(x) T-3
Total: 12

(x) Empire Records
( ) SLC Punk
(x) Meet Joe Black
(x) Nightmare Before Christmas
(x) The Silence of the Lambs
(x) Sleepy Hollow
(x) I Heart Huckabees
( ) 24 Hour Party People
() Blood In Blood Out
Total: 6

(x) Thirteen
(x) Manic
(x) American History X
(x) Deep Blue Sea
(x) George of the Jungle
(x) Canadian Bacon
(x) The Stuff
(x) How High
(x) The Jacket
(x) My Little Ponys Grand Adventure 2
Total:10

Top 10 Questions...

~*~* Top 10 *~*~
---10 Firsts---
First Best Friend::: Nichole Mac… something
First Screenname::: PrincessLiAngel2
First Pet Name::: Fang
First Piercing::: ears, when I was 5
First Crush::: the substitute gym teacher Mr. Watson
First CD::: it was a tie… Boyz 2 Men “II” and TLC “Crazy Sexy Cool”
First School::: Austin School
First House Location::: That I can remember… Rollinsford, nh
First Kiss::: first real kiss…Jerk off Afonso
First Car::: still driving my ‘00 Ford Mustang LiAngel
---9 Lasts---
Last Time You Smoked::: Never
Last Food You Ate::: Oatmeal
Last Car Ride::: this morning to work
Last Movie You Watched::: Mr and Mrs Smith
Last Phone Call::: Joanna
Last CD You Listened To::: Dave Attell
Last Bubble Bath You Took::: This summer, I had the really bad cramps
Last Song You Listened To::: "Don’t Let Go"- En Vouge (gotta love iTunes
Last Words You Said::: “I’m such an idiot”
---8 Have-You-Evers---
Dated A Best Friend::: Nope
Been Arrested::: Nope
Been On TV::: Yes
Eaten Sushi::: Yes
Cheated On Your B/F or G/F::: Nope
Been On A Blind Date::: nope
Been Out Of The Country::: Yes
Been In Love::: Yes
---7 Things You Are Wearing---
1::: Adidas pull over Daddy bought because he didn’t like my other one
2::: Levis 555
3::: Mom’s grey beanie cap
4::: tee shirt
5::: red toe nail polish
6::: I would say underware, but oh well I forgot
7::: chapstick
---6 Things You've Done Today---
1::: checked my work email
2::: checked my personal email
3::: helped Jaima set up the DVD deck
4::: taken a call from Joanna, about Dylan’s missing NARA shots
5::: made oatmeal
6::: prepared the Independence Seaport Museum hi rez photos so later I can send them to my editor in LA
---5 Favorite Things (not in any order)---
1::: My family & Friends
2::: TV and movies
3::: tiny things
4::: yellow
5::: food
---4 People You Most Trust---
1::: My sister
2::: My Daddy
3::: Roz
4::: Tracy
---3 Things You Want To Do Before You Die---
1::: Get married
2::: have children
3::: like myself
---2 Choices---
Vanilla or Chocolate::: Vanilla
Hugs or Kisses::: I’m not a touchy feely person
--1 Person You Want To See Right Now---
1::: Guess?

I Lack the Skills that Pay the Bills…

God is punishing me for wanting to have sex and not being married. I totally believe in this. I’m not in any way a Holy Roller, but I do have strict moral values. I am having another major moral dilemma. So I did a bad, bad thing… okay I tried giving a blowjob, but god damnit I can’t even suck a dude off. I am so bad. After 20 minutes of nothing I ran to the bathroom to rinse my mouth and cry. If I were a prostitute I would starve. I always thought that a woman’s ability to make a man climax was the secret power of being a woman. What kind of woman am I when I can’t even get a horny guy off? I bought a book and everything… nothing. There were like two times when I thought he was close, but I must have done something wrong. Maybe I slowed down or I loosened my grip. My goodness I have weak arms and a weak mouth. I even did my tongue trick (you know rub the head with your tongue while simultaneously creating a vacuum on the head and pumping the shaft). And unlike my head, my body is sooo not ready for full on intercourse. I can barely fit a tampon up there. Seriously if I can’t handle two small fingers there is no way a whole penis is getting up there. I am just inadequate as a woman capable of a mature relationship. I don’t know what to do about this situation… on a much brighter note… I slept over again last night. He’s really a good bed buddy. I wish I could sleepover every night, but I know for a fact that I would need my space every once in a while. And I like how so far I have managed to avoid “bad memories” It’s because of “bad memories” that I will never share MY bed with any man. Follow my logic here… if I had sex or even just shared my bed with some guy the memory of the two of us will forever be in that bed, and if something were to happen with the relationship I would be stuck with the memory of us in my bed. I would have to buy a new bed or suffer the bad memories forever (would you want to sleep in a bed that someone died in? I didn’t think so, same idea). It’s bad enough that I can no longer watch Will and Grace, or listen to Dave Mathews.
Okay so back to the sex (well what we have done so far I wouldn’t call sex, but it was still hot)… I have this leg-humping problem. I don’t mean to, but I kinda start doing it in my sleep, and sometimes when I wake up and realize what I am doing I just don’t stop. But he has a strong, but not rough touch. It’s almost perfect… I wonder how many women he’s sleep with? I should ask one of these days. Oh and he takes suggestions well. I’m very shocked at myself for speaking up and telling him that he was being a bit too rough. Yeah why do boys think that just because they like it hard with their equipment that chicks like it hard also. My goodness boys don’t be so direct with the little man in the boat. You know? Try rubbing his shoulders and not his head. He started off a little rocky, but eventually he found his rhythm. I must give myself snaps for saying “not to hard” I should speak up more in bed. I never ask for anything… Should I? Like who am I to ask a dude to do things that I like?
Usually I am not a nipple biting kind of girl, but Oh my, is he good at it? It didn’t even hurt. I just wish he took notice that I do have two breasts, which means that I have two nipples. Oh well.
I have the dirtiest mind… if I had a bit (okay a lot more) confidence in my ability (or in this case lack of) to please a man, I would have done very, very, non-Brady things. I’m a very kinky girl, but it takes a lot of groundwork to get me to really let loose. Okay I’ll shut up now, because I think I may have said too much already!!!

Second Guessing...

I haven’t made any sort of big life alliterating decision in such a long time… and even when I did have to I had my daddy or sister there to help me. In the past I have had others second guess choices I’ve made so many times that now I second guess myself. Okay so I like him. But why do I like him? Is it just hormones, or do we really have a mutual serious connection? I’m no mind reader, and if I start asking too many questions so soon I just might scare him away. I did something kinda stupid, but I so totally stopped myself from doing something I would soooooooo regret.
I feel like it’s time for me to have sex again. I have resolved my feelings for Mike and God to a point where I can forgive and move on. And I was willing to sleep with Tommy because I’ve known him for well forever, and I am comfortable enough with him to be open. And my goodness Tommy is so not boyfriend material. Dude can’t even hold a conversation without spacing out.. But I am fine with that. I am in no ways a casual sex kinda chick (hence I am such a Charlotte), but the type of friendship I have with Tommy I think I could handle it without getting all jealous and hurt.
Then there is this guy… I like him, don’t get me wrong, but I don’t know him well enough to just sleep with him. Hell I can barely talk to him. And he doesn’t seem to be anything like his friends… but then why is he friends with them? And then there’s the issue of do we even have anything in common? We both like movies, but is that enough? Look what happen when I just fell blindly in love… I ended up with a lying ecstasy selling douche bag. Last night he tried to kiss me and I freaked… TWICE!!!
Then there is the nature of our relationship. Are we just friends? Even after last night? (FYI no I didn’t sleep with him, but I did finally let him kiss me). I know he’s not my boyfriend, but are we “talking”? This is so hard, we haven’t had one of those “let’s define our relationship” talk yet. Are we allowed to see other people? I could be stressing myself out for nothing here. For all I know he thinks we’re just good friends. I could be making more out of this than necessary. I should stop thinking that this is something really real, and start treating it like one of my hook-ups. Only he’s not a model/ actor, and he’s not dumb as a post, and I don’t make out with him in between setups on set because I am so bored just waiting around. He actually has interesting things to say, and I enjoy just being near him. Even if I am just sitting in the corner watching him play Beirut or Swords with his friends.
I’m not going to swear it anymore. I like him and I’m having fun. I should be happy with that… and I’m not going to except anything more than friends hanging out.