The Green Eyed Monster...

I’m not jealous… “I just watched MTV’s True Life: I’m Jealous” and I am so not like those people, but I deal is I don’t know where I stand with him. Okay so at the end of the night all his friends left, and he went off to talk to some chick… whatever that’s cool… but I was left standing there thinking, “should I stay, or should I go?” (which played on WERZ on the way home)… I would have waited around while he did whatever with whom ever… if I was his girlfriend, but I’m not. So there I was trying to figure out if I was there as his friend and I should leave like his other friends, or if I should wait for him. God made my choice for me. Y’all know how I just like to sneak out of places because I hate goodbyes? So I found the perfect opportunity there was a large crowd heading for the door, so I just went along with them. I’m just about to make a clean break when he stops me and asks if I’m leaving. And he did the sweetest thing… He got all concerned about me being cold walking to my car. Anyway when he asked if I was leaving I wanted him to say “don’t, wait” but he didn’t. His eyes looked like they wanted to say wait, but then again they could have just been irritated by the smoke in the room… Even as I was driving home I secretly wished he would call and ask me to come back, but he didn’t… He said he would call… I’m going to dinner with Tim and Mike (I think). I hope he calls, but I’m not going to wait by the phone…